Communication = Frustration

Gosh darn it's hard to communicate.
stupid phone calls
stupid phone calls that I waited and waited for....
why do we always screw them up...
can't sleep
can't stop thinking....

sigh

What I really meant to say is:

... I feel so stupid for missing you so much. I love you to pieces and wish you were home to make everything better. I'm sorry for not being perfect..but I'm trying really hard to make this easy on you. It's hard for me too. You might be home sick but I'm Joe sick. I love you so much it hurts and I can't wait for this stupid deployment to be over.