Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Celebration of life!



Celebration of his life- RIP 11/4/08

Services: Auburn, Maine - Dignity

Thank-you for all of the kind words, prayers and support.

Joey is will be coming home to be with his family.

We have an amazing command to thank for that. We are lucky to be blessed with a fantastic squadron who worked around the clock to get his travel arrangements squared away. I'm also thankful for a family-orientated Captain and COB. We will never forget what our submarine family did for our family.

I rec' email from Joe after the Captain told him the bad news. I'm anxious to get him in my arms. I'm ready to help him heal. I've been there ( RIP Daddy 7/9/04 ). I know what it's like to feel fine one minute and lose it the next. I know that you expect to hear their voice every day. I can help with the daily struggles.

This journey (at times) has been difficult for me because it's like reliving my own dads battle with cancer. My husband is a pretty amazing guy. Joe's email ended with- "I love you and I know we can get through anything." Although this is about his healing. It's about loving him, nurturing him, caring for him. He doesn't forget. And I am reminded how amazing he is. He knew before I said a word that this would be hard for me too. That my heart hurts. That this forces me to remember. It doesn't allow me my compartments where I place things when I can't deal. My heart aches more now then it did back them...when it was just for me.

It doesn't just ache for him, but for his family too. Because...this sucks. And it's so unfair. 5 kids. He won't get to see four of them marry their soul mate. He won't get to say.."you've done good" on their wedding day like he did for Joey. One of both our prized memories of the day. He won't meet his grand kids. We'll never have our Harleys together again. He won't see Riley graduate High School. He didn't get to see Joey get off the boat as a Chief Petty Officer. And it's not so bad for him- because he does get to SEE it. But it's the experience for all of them.

My heart.... just hurts.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am very sorry for your loss. I think it's wonderful your husband is going to be able to come home. You already said it, but your father-in-law will be there to see everything, and hopefully everyone can feel his spirit there with them as they come to lifes milestones. I don't know you, your husband, or your families, but I am sure that your father-in-law was/is extremely proud of his children, and what they've done and what they've yet to do. As for grandchildren, all you can do is share the best memories, good and sad with them, and to teach them about what a great man I am sure that he was. May his soul rest in peace.

Dani said...

I'm so glad that Joe is going to make it home. Such an answered prayer. Continued prayer for you during this season of loss.

Robin said...

I'm so sorry again for your loss and for everything you are feeling all over again, Sam. You know that Greg and I are thinking of you both during this time.

Allison said...

That is a very very raw and tough situation. But he's right, you two will get through it. Maybe part of the reason the two of you were brought together was because you would have this in common. Not that it's something you want to have in common, but hopefully you know what I mean. I'm very glad for you, for him, and for his family that he's able to make it back.

Rick LaCouture said...

Joe and Samantha,

I am saddened to hear of your recent loss. My thoughts and prayers are there for you and your mother. I'm glad he was a large part of your life, who helped influence your character.

kkrowan said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I will have you and your family in my prayers. Let me know if you need anything.

Miss Hope said...

I keep coming by your blog to "check on you". I hope Joe made it home safely and healing has begun. Thoughts and prayers your way......

Anonymous said...

I am a member of an online community called www.navyformoms.com . I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Your family is in our prayers.
Dawn