Friday, July 22, 2011

Ready or it comes.

Deja Vu....

Last night Joe had duty. And I remembered what sea duty will be like. Except this time I'll have Savannah too! Yes- we'll be starting slow. He'll be out for 15-28 days and then back in ...out and then back in...and then BAM deployment - where he'll be out 6-8 months. (repeat cycle for 3-4 years, then back to shore)

Phew! Am I ready for this again? I'm always fine when he's gone. I miss him- but life goes on. I have a lot of things on my plate including both of my jobs, my family....and well life. But now I have this other little person to factor in. A little person that I love so much. A little person that I don't want to be sad. or worried. or confused.

So many thoughts/questions ran through my head last night;

Will it be easier because of Savannah? We have to stay even more busy!
Will she understand why he isn't around?
Will she be sad? Will she forget him?
Will they share they same wonderful relationship that they do now when he comes home?
Will I be able to shuffle everything?
Will I be sad that Joe is missing all of our new adventures?
Will we be able to get pregnant as hoped before deployment?
Will my pregnacy go easy?
What will happen if he gets extended or I give birth early?
What's the plan if we don't get pregnant before deployment?

Everyone tells you they will help - and they will - BUT they have their own life and so most of it does fall on you as the military wife. I am thankful for my support system especially those that watch Savannah. BUT...

whew.. Am I ready for this? I guess it doesn't matter.
Ready or Not. It's here.

Good BYE shore duty.

Mommy Monkey - signing off!

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Bri0213 said...

me me!!! remember i am ALWAYS around so feel free to get in touch if you need anything :)

katie pepper cole said...

I almost started crying when you said will she forget him. She won't! You are such a strong amazing person. You and your baby girl will be great together while your husband/daddy is gone.